Wednesday, May 17, 2006
day three sans hubby
actually, it's kind of nice to have a little space with Dennis gone. I notice that I am louder- the TV is louder, I sang in the shower, etc. (Maybe because it is so quiet without him?)
Anyway, yesterday I went out for tea with a neighbor and today one of my friends came over and we ate frozen pizza and watched "American Idol" and talked about her boyfriend and read "womens" magazines. It's been really fun to spend some time with my girl friends! Anyway, I have been feeling so capable of being independent without Dennis which is empowering- I bought stamps and mailed out bills to be paid and I just feel like I've been so productive. (I think I would have been productive with him here but maybe because he isn't here, I'm more conscious of it?)
Dennis has been running around Santiago- he wanted to go to our jeweler to resize his wedding ring but our jeweler has moved! So he will try to find a new place tomorrow. And tommorrow he has the entire day to spend with his youngest daughter, Cristina, which is very nice and exciting because they have been in school and so he has only seen them for a couple of hours each day so far. I'm trying to encourage him to not be stressed out or down because I know he wanted to spend the entire trip with his little girls but I think he is kind of in a culture shock still and maybe he is a little homesick for "gringolandia"? (I don't know if that is normal for people who are immigrants?)
I guess the main thing that sucks is that I realize that I talk to Dennis so much (I really probably talk 90% more than he does!) and now noone is here! And it's weird to have a new mattress but not to share it with my husband. (what is even stranger is that I leave for Michigan the day he comes home, for a 2 day conference for women in ministry!!) I am looking forward to seeing his photos and listening to him tell me in person about all of his memories and I can't wait to have hugs and kisses. His mother told me that next time I have to come because she thinks that he might be feeling a little down because I didn't go to Chile with him. (I really love my mother in law!!)
So, so far, being alone is pretty boring. But so far I am doing okay. (Why was Dennis worried that I couldn't be alone all by myself?) The house is a little cleaner and I can stretch out in bed (but I still sleep on my side!!). So far, Dennis being so far away is not really that big of a deal.
And as the photo above displays, I bought a second pair of the most comfortable pants EVER yesterday at urbanoutfitters.com. They have changed my life (because I didn't think I would fit in them or look good in them and I do!!)